Update and something embarrassing

Weighed myself this morning: 301.8 lbs

So I’m up again, but I’m not sweating it. I enjoyed myself over the holidays and I don’t regret it, I would rather have an extra 3 pounds to lose than not let myself indulge in things like eggnog, gingerbread etc. that I don’t normally have. It’s all good.

Now, for the embarrassing thing.

I used to frequent Denny’s at night A LOT. I went through a period of unemployment and in that time, I got up later in the morning and I wouldn’t usually eat until late afternoon, by which time I was starving. (Terrible habit, I know.) SO, because of that, I would be too full to eat supper at the normal time, so I would get really hungry late at night. I didn’t really want to dirty a bunch of dishes by cooking at that late hour, so I would often take my favourite book and head to Denny’s.

After I got a job and had to stick to a schedule, I stopped going. However, I recently left my job because I am moving to another city (in another country!) so until I go, the only schedule I have to stick to is my packing one, which I determine myself. Last night I was out at a friend’s until late and when I left her place I was starving. I had a book with me, so I pulled into trusty old Denny’s for something to eat. (I know I shouldn’t have, as Denny’s is literally one of the least healthy places to eat on the planet, but sometimes a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do.)

I went in and the waitress said “Well hello there, haven’t seen you in awhile!” and showed me to my table etc. etc. At the end of the night, she gave me my bill and I noticed that she hadn’t charged me for my Coke. When I mentioned this to her, she said “Oh, I know. You’re a regular, I never charge regulars for drinks.”

Maybe embarrassing is too strong a word, but it certainly made me think about my life choices. She doesn’t know me outside of Denny’s, nor does she know my name, but she knows me by sight well enough that she can recognize me after months of being away. And she considers me to have frequented Denny’s enough, despite not having set foot in the place for months, to deserve a free drink for my good business.

I’m thinking I should stop going there…

The Battle of the Bulge – Christmas Edition and an Update

Christmas is one of my favourite times of year. I love the lights, the music, the snow, the decorations, the colours and spending time with my family, it makes me so happy. BUT…there’s also the food. 

Now, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE the food. Pecan pie, ice cream, turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing, gravy, candied carrots, gingerbread, sugar cookies, shortbread, cranberry sauce, butter tarts, rum balls, pumpkin pie and, of course, CHOCOLATE. So good.
But, of course, when you’re trying to lose weight, it can be difficult! I do want to make good choices, but Christmas does only come once a year so I feel like splurging a little is okay…right?

I haven’t been exercising at all, Christmas kind of took over my life, what with shopping and decorating and baking and wrapping and trying to balance work and the like. But Christmas is over, (most of) the junk food has been eaten and I don’t have to worry about shopping for presents for another year, so we can get back to working out! 

Also, last weight (as of December 23, 2013): 298.4 lbs. So I’m up, but it’s okay! I just dread what it’ll be next week…

Statistics – As of December 16, 2013

Previously, I have been weighing myself on Wednesdays, but I thought that I would change that to Mondays instead, just because it seems to make more sense. Monday, to me, is the start of a new week and weighing myself on Monday mornings gives me a place to start.

So, as of Monday December 16, 2013, my height was 5’7″ and my weight was 297.4 lbs.

Since I started on the 5th, I have lost 5.8 lbs. While this seems like a really good loss, I haven’t truly done a lot to make it happen. I have been too busy to exercise (and if I’m not too busy, too tired) but I have been trying to make better food choices. However, I have also been sick lately, so I’m sure that surviving on chicken noodle soup for a couple of days made a dent. And, as I mentioned before, my weight fluctuates a couple of pounds regularly.

BUT at least it’s down and not up, right?

Being Healthy Shouldn’t Be So Hard

I have been trying, for the last little while, to omit processed food and added sugar from my diet and to exercise more. Simple, right? Sort of. I have some pretty bad habits and so trying to cut back on certain things I love most has proven difficult. But at least it’s clear cut.

But IS it that clear cut? Food and nutrition are a hot issue, apparently. I have done a lot of research on health over the last few years and let me tell you, wading through all of the differing opinions is so difficult.

Many vegans and vegetarians maintain that animal fats are BAD and that eating too much red meat will cause heart disease. Okay, I can accept that to some degree. Saturated fats are bad for you and eating too much of anything is probably not very good at all. But wait, now there’s someone else saying that animal fats are good for you and that you should eat lots of full-fat milk and butter and cheese, but only if it’s raw and unpasteurized. But then somebody else says hang on, pasteurization is a good thing because drinking unpasteurized milk can make you very sick. So then somebody else says okay, drink pasteurized milk, but only drink fat-free because butter and milk fat are bad for you. So you should use vegetable oil instead. But then vegetable oil will actually kill you and cause you to grow horns, so you should only use olive oil. But wait actually olive oil has a really low smoke point and should never be used for cooking and also most olive oil is fake, so use lard instead. But wait lard is full of saturated fat, so use coconut oil. But coconut oil has saturated fat but actually wait it’s a good kind, so don’t worry about it. You should eat lots of coconut oil, but actually don’t eat grains because grains are toxic and they cause autism and gastro-intestinal disease and cancer. But actually wait eat grains, just don’t eat oatmeal because it has phytic acid in it and it will rot your teeth. If you do eat grains, then you should only use baking soda on your teeth because all commercial toothpastes are toxic. But baking soda will ruin the enamel on your teeth, so you should brush with clay instead. But actually, flouride is the best thing to prevent tooth decay. But wait a second, flouride will KILL YOU and dentists are only after money, so avoid flouride and just eat lots of fat-soluble vitamins, like A & D. And also, don’t wear sunscreen because then you can’t absorb vitamin D. But wait actually, do wear sunscreen because you can get skin cancer if you don’t. But actually don’t wear sunscreen because sunscreen causes skin cancer and makes you turn green and your limbs will rot and fall off. And don’t eat fruit because it will rot your teeth. And don’t use cast-iron skillets. And don’t cook your food because you kill the nutrients. But actually do cook it because it will kill you if you don’t. And don’t use metal cooking utensils. And don’t do this. And don’t do that.

Confusing, right? It is impossible to follow everyone’s advice. On the one hand, you have health professionals (doctors, dentists, dermatologists) saying “Do eat this, do that, don’t do that” but then you have people who say that they’re all in it for the money and that “THE MAN” and all the big corporations control everything and CONSUMERISM and BRAINWASHING. But then on the other hand, the people doing the anti-medical thing don’t always have credible evidence to back up their claims.

So it makes you wonder? IS my doctor in it for the money? So should I believe somebody who writes a natural health food column? Or should I be skeptical about what they say because they don’t appear to have done any medical research?

The only thing that is agreed upon on all sides seems to be that vegetables are good for you. So I guess I will just become a rabbit…

Progress Update – as of December 15, 2013

I weighed myself again last Wednesday (the 11th) but haven’t really had much time to update it at the moment. Anyway, as of Wednesday, my stats were as follows:

Height: 5’7″
Weight: 300.2 lbs

So I lost 3 lbs. However, my weight often fluctuates about 5 lbs so I suspect that this is a temporary thing, as I haven’t made a conscious effort this week to work out. I am trying to watch what I eat and make good choices, but I find that I can’t really lose weight until I get exercise in too, so that is my goal for this week.

My Statistics – as of December 5, 2013

In order to accurately keep track of my progress, I am going to weigh myself once a week and post it on this blog along with my measurements, which I will take once a month.

Current Stats – 05/12/2013

Height: 5′ 7″
Weight: 303.2 lbs
BMI: 47.5
Bust: 50 in.
Waist: 56 in.
Hips: 51.5 in.
Pants/Dress Size: 20

The only thing I don’t know is what my body fat percentage is. My BMI is extremely high, obviously, but I also have a lot of muscle on my frame, so I suspect that my body fat percentage is lower than my BMI would suggest. Either way though, it doesn’t matter. I have to lose weight.