Progress Update – as of February 19, 2014 – The Uphill Battle…

Height: 5’7″
Current Weight: 294.6 lbs
Gain: 2.0 lbs
Current BMI: 46.1
Gain: 0.3

So this week, I gained. Again. And to be honest, I am getting really frustrated. I am trying hard to think positive, but it’s really annoying to see the scale go up and down so much. (Although I’m not going to quit, don’t worry about that!)

I am mostly frustrated because there doesn’t seem to be anything I can do about it. I got sick again this week, so doing exercise is really difficult for me because it hurts to breathe very soon after I start. I have read in multiple places that 90% of weight loss is eating well and that you can lose weight without exercise if you adjust your diet, but apparently my body needs both exercise and eating well in order to lose weight.

I want to exercise. I do. It feels weird to not have done a true workout routine for so long, but my lungs can’t handle it yet. It’s infuriating. Any suggestions about alternative workouts that I can do that won’t aggravate them? I walk with my dogs for 20 minutes every day, at least twice a day, so that’s something I guess. But anything more strenuous than that leaves me gasping for air and in pain, so I’m hoping to find something to replace running until I can fully recover. Swimming, maybe? Anyway…

What I Did Really Well This Week:

1) I think I did a great job with eating well and I’m irritated that the scale doesn’t appear to reflect that. I know that you cannot map your progress exclusively by the scale, but it’s discouraging to see it go up and down and up again.

2) I did very well at tracking again this week, which is great so me. Tracking is the best thing for me to ensure I monitor my portions and don’t overindulge.

3) I also did pretty well at eating Power Foods this week. Power Foods, on Weight Watchers, are low-fat dairy products, fruits, vegetables, lean protein and whole grains. Basically, the healthiest foods you can eat are Power Foods and I did really well eating a lot of those this week.

What I Can Improve On:

1) Exercising. I hope that I can find an alternative to running until I fully recover, so that I can at least get back into some sort of routine.

How I Feel:

Frustrated. I pretty much covered it earlier, I’m just frustrated that I’m going up and down and frustrated that I can’t exercise to try to offset it. Maybe this week will be better.

Falling Off the Wagon and the Lessons I Learned

Living a healthy lifestyle is hard, it really is. I’m sure once you get used to it that it seems second nature, but overhauling your life and going from being sedentary and eating poorly to exercising daily and eating really well can be a difficult transition.

I admit, I have fallen off the wagon, if you will, in the past couple of weeks. I was in such a great mindset with exercising every day for so long and eating well and now I am finding it so hard to get back into the routine. My eating has been pretty good, actually, but the exercise is almost non-existent right now.

Earlier this week, however, I broke two of my resolutions: 1) I ate fast food (Chinese) and 2) I drank pop. Now, I’m not beating myself up for these, because I know that it’s not “bad” for me to have these things once in awhile. But it made me think and here’s why.

After I ate that food, I felt horrible. The Chinese food tasted great, don’t get me wrong, but it was typical Westernized Chinese cuisine: greasy and covered in sauce. When I eat well, I usually feel great and healthy and energized afterwards; after I ate this, I felt sluggish. Then, worse, about half an hour after eating, my stomach really started to hurt. I can only imagine that it was because of the high fat content in the food after not eating anything like that for so long, but it was incredibly uncomfortable.

As for the pop (or soda, for some of you), let me just say this: pop runs through me now. Sorry if this is TMI, but after drinking pop, I have to pee all the time. Like every 10 minutes a good few times. This does not happen with any other beverage, just pop, because it is a diuretic.

To be honest, though the food and the pop tasted great, how I felt afterwards was pretty lousy. I didn’t feel energized, I just felt kind of ill. No matter how much I love Chinese food, I think that I would rather stick to making my own healthy versions than getting takeout. It just doesn’t seem worth it.

Progress Update – as of February 12, 2014

Height: 5’7″
Current Weight: 292.6 lbs
Loss: 1.4 lbs
Current BMI: 45.8
Loss: 0.2

So this week I am back on the losing track and I couldn’t be happier! I’ll be honest though, getting back into working out was tough. There were days when I really really did not want to and sometimes my couch won out and I did not. I also had to slow down my workouts and not do as much as I was previously doing, because I discovered (to my dismay) that even though I was sick 3 weeks ago, my lungs are still not back to where they were. I could only do 15 minutes on the treadmill (as opposed to my usual 30) until they really started hurting, but that’s okay, it’s better than nothing and I’ll get back in slowly.

This is going to be a short post, since I have another one brewing that will be up later today or tomorrow, so here we go.

What I Did Really Well This Week: 

1) I have started my day with a piece of fruit every day and I am proud of that. I have really made an effort this week to get in more fruits and veggies and I think I did pretty well with that.

2) I got back to tracking my food, everything that I eat. I think tracking makes a big difference for me because so often I will pop something in my mouth and then without realizing, I’ve just eaten 500 calories without even thinking. Tracking makes me much more aware.

What I Can Improve On:

1) Exercise is my main goal this week, to get back into the routine that I had before. I am going to take it easy because my lungs are still feeling tired from my illness, but even if I can just do 15 minutes or just do weights or something, at least it’s something.

How I Feel:

A little frustrated that I can’t jump right back into the exercise routine that I was doing, but otherwise I feel pretty good about things. I am stressed out, but I think I have been handling it pretty well, so that’s good. I just have to keep working towards my goals and think ahead and not let the stress of the moment allow me to inhale a bag of chips or something like that.

Progress Update – as of February 5, 2014

Height: 5’7″
Current Weight: 294.0 lbs
Gain: 3.9 lbs
Current BMI: 46.0
Gain: 0.6
Bust: 50 in.
Waist: 56 in.
Hips: 51.5 in.
Pants/Dress Size: 18

Hello readers,

My apologies for my tardiness in this post. As I have mentioned previously, in passing, (or at least I think I did!) I am moving to New Zealand in approximately 3 1/2 weeks and it is seriously stressing me out. I have so much to do before I go and life is kicking my butt right now. If I didn’t need sleep I would be in great shape, but unfortunately…

Also unfortunate is that I gained weight. Annoying, yes, but it wasn’t entirely unexpected. I was ill from the 25th to the 30th, then I was away from the 31st to the 7th, so my exercise routine was non-existent in that time period. I could have worked out when I was away, but at that point I had kind of fallen out of the habit, so I honestly wasn’t all that motivated to work out. My bad, I know.

I did eat fairly well in the week that I was away, but given that I had been existing on chicken soup and juice the week before when I was ill, I assumed that most of the weight I lost was water weight and that it would come back as soon as I started eating real food again. I was right. And I was with my aunt and grandmother, who are both excellent bakers, so I may have overindulged in some goodies like cake and cookies and fudge while I was away. However, it’s a new week and I am determined to see a loss next week!

As of the start of this blog, my net loss is 7.8 lbs. Not as high as I wanted, but it’s still a loss, so yay me. January was pretty good to me and I’m hoping that February will be the same.

My measurements have not changed, but it’s okay, we’re getting there!

What I Did Really Well This Week:

1) I ate more fruit, especially in the mornings, and I ate breakfast every morning. My grandmother is an early riser, as is my aunt, so I was up early every morning while I was gone and I had a healthy breakfast every day, usually consisting of fruit, oatmeal or toast, and a glass of milk.

2) I drank a lot of liquids (my grandma is really into tea, so she drinks several cups a day and we always joined her) which is good, because when I am not exercising I usually do not drink as much liquid as I should.

3) I got a lot of sleep. Back at my place, I usually stay up as long as I want to. My grandmother’s apartment is small and she and my aunt go to bed early, so I went to bed when they did because watching TV or something like that would keep them awake. It was good though, I never get enough sleep.

What I Can Improve On:

1) I haven’t exercised for about 2 weeks, so I really need to get back on that wagon. When you’re really busy, it’s so easy to push exercise to the side, but I love how it makes me feel so I really want to make time for myself during the day to exercise and stay on track.

2) I also didn’t really track my food intake while I was sick or while I was away, so I need to get back into the habit of doing that. I did eat pretty well while I was away, but I still think that it’s a good idea for me to write down what I eat so that I can make sure that I’m not overdoing a certain food group and to make sure that I’m getting enough fruits and vegetables.

How I Feel:

Right now, I honestly just feel really, really stressed. I have so much organizing and sorting and packing to do and it is really making me feel a bit overwhelmed at this point. I do feel like I am still on the right path towards weight loss, but when I get stressed out I tend to not exercise (which, ironically, helps with stress) and I tend to eat emotionally, so I really need to keep that in check.

Anyway, happy weight loss to all and let’s hope that next week is better!