Progress Update – as of February 6 and 13, 2016

Height: 5’7″

February 6, 2016
Current Weight: 311.8 lbs
Gain: 1.2 lbs
Current BMI: 48.8
Gain: 0.2
Bust: 52 inches
Waist: 57.5 inches (+ 1.5 inches)
Hips: 56 inches

February 13, 2016
Current Weight: 313.0 lbs
Gain: 1.2 lbs
Current BMI: 49.0
Gain: 0.2

So, I’m up again. I’m not surprised, this week I was so incredibly busy, I feel like I didn’t have a second to myself. I had commitments every single night, several of which included dinners. I didn’t really cook at all this week, I bought my lunch a lot because I got home so late every night, so it’s completely my fault. Oh well.

I supposedly added 1.5 inches to my waist, but I’m not entirely sure if I believe my measurements, I find it’s very difficult to hold the actual measuring tape the same way every time, so for that small a different, I’m not worried.

I had a good and bad week this week. I was still feeling pretty lost and down in the dumps, but a friend of mine did a tarot card reading for me on Monday. I don’t really believe in any of that stuff, but it was still kind of fun. She has been through depression too and she keeps trying to remind me, whenever I’m feeling down, to banish the negative self-talk. It’s something that I’ve done for years, so it’s very difficult to do, but I am trying.

I also had a really wonderful talk with a friend of mine. He got angry with me the other day for being so negative about myself, so he asked me to come over so we could talk about it, which was so nice. He wanted me to know that he was there for me and that I’m not alone and that just because this one man rejected me doesn’t mean that I have nothing to offer or that I am not worthy of love. It seems obvious, but sometimes it’s really hard to believe that I am a person of worth.

I’m not going to list my goals on here anymore, I think I was putting too much pressure on myself to change too many things at once. I mentioned this in my last post, but I’m a very “all for nothing” kind of person and I find it really hard to forgive myself when I make mistakes. So I’m just going for the simple approach this week and doing my best to live a healthy lifestyle: drinking water, eating as healthy as I can, trying to get in 10,000 steps a day and trying to get lots of sleep. And, most importantly, learning to forgive myself!

Cheers, happy losing!

 

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That PFG gets IG

So, as a follow-up to my last post, I DID make myself a ThatPrettyFatGirl instagram!

I will be posting photos of my progress (yay motivation!) along with inspiring photos and quotes. I am trying very hard to embrace and love myself as I am, and I have found that seeing so many body-positive people on Instagram, of all shapes and sizes, has helped me to love my body a little bit more. I’m still not totally happy with it by any stretch, BUT I have learned to appreciate the good and beautiful things, instead of just focusing on the cellulite or the stretchmarks.

Some days, at least. Other days it’s harder. But I’m getting there.

I haven’t posted anything yet, but I will right away, so do go ahead and find me! My handle is that.prettyfatgirl.

Cheers, happy losing!

Progress Update – as of August 30, 2015

An’ here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known,
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone
An’ I’ve made up my mind
I ain’t wasting no more time

Whitesnake, anyone? Good song. Relevant, I think, to my life right now.

HOW is it the end of August already? HOW, I tell you?

I did it again, as you may have noticed. I slacked off. I moved, my beloved kitty died (he was 16, so he had a GREAT life, but sad to see him go) and I wrote an exam for a university course that I am taking, so my life the past few weeks has been packing, studying and, sadly, grieving.

It’s just an excuse, though. I know it is. I could make exercise a priority in my life. I think, for most of us, not having enough time is really not true. My life was this: go to work, come home from work, eat supper, study, pack, go to bed. I studied for an hour and packed for an hour every night, if that. So where did all of those other hours go? Sure, there was a little time for me to make supper or to pack my lunch for the next day. But there was also definitely time for me to have squeezed in 30 minutes of exercise. But I didn’t, because I am not accountable for my time. Like most of us, I get sucked into my computer and my phone and before I know it, I’ve spent half an hour looking at some random article that I don’t really even care about.

My life has simplified a lot now, which is nice. I have fewer commitments that I had previously and I’ve moved to a place that is two blocks from a pool (I love swimming, I could swim every day) AND I have signed up to take some dance classes. I hate conventional exercise, I am realizing. I mean, I like going for walks, but the leisurely pace at which I walk isn’t really enough to have a huge impact on my fitness or my weight. And I don’t like feeling like I have to go for a walk, I like walking when I want to get outside and enjoy myself. So here’s to new beginnings!

I think I am going to put photos up. I have been reluctant to do so because it’s embarrassing, but maybe it will keep me accountable. Not my face, just myself.

I have a lot of self-esteem issues. I have recently developed very strong feelings for a friend of mine and I’d like to pursue it  – and I *think* he feels the same way – but I am realizing that the way I feel about myself is holding me back, because I feel like he could never possibly be attracted to someone who looks like me.

I do not want to lose weight for him, so that he would be attracted to me, but I feel this experience has taught me that I need to feel good about myself and love myself before I can let someone else love me. I think that having photos up will not only motivate me, but perhaps taking photographs and really forcing myself to look in the mirror all the time (something I generally avoid) will help me to appreciate who I am and love myself as I am, regardless of whether I fit into society’s idea of beautiful.

Cheers and happy losing!

Progress Update – as of September 6, 2014

Height: 5’7″
Weight: 294.3 lbs
Gain: 0.1 lbs
Current BMI: 46.1
Gain: 0

So, I skipped August 30, as you may have noticed. The past couple of weeks have been SUPER busy for many reasons: my brother’s birthday, acquiring a new kitten (he is the cutest little fluffball you ever did see!!!), picking apples and plums off the trees before they all fall AND, most importantly, preparations for my very best and oldest (we’ve been friends for 24 years!) friend’s wedding, which happened on September 6th in the mountains of Alberta. Normally when I don’t do a blog post for two weeks, I like to update with both days, but I honestly cannot remember August 30. I weighed myself, but I didn’t record the number (wedding prep drove pretty much everything else out of my mind) and so I have no idea. Oh well. 

What I Did Well This Week:
1) Well, not a lot. I’m frankly surprised that I only gained 0.1 lbs, given how little sleep and exercise I’ve gotten in the last two weeks. Not to mention that I haven’t been eating very well (the whole “no sugar” thing was a total bust) and then of course weddings mean FOOD (including the most delicious red velvet cupcake I’ve ever had in my life) and drinks. I have never had a rum and coke before the wedding and I have to say, I’m hooked! 

What I Can Improve On:
1) Now that the wedding is over, I really want to get back on track with my exercise and my eating and my sleep patterns. Cutting out sugar completely was a total mistake, as I went overboard later, but I am still hoping to reduce my sugar intake. 

How I Feel:
Pretty darn good, actually. The wedding was so wonderful, I had such a great time, and I am really hoping to use the positive energy from the weekend to help me with my goals. 

Cheers, happy losing!

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year, dear readers! I hope you all bid 2013 goodbye in style, I certainly did. 

I thought I would share some of my resolutions with you. In the past, I have made the mistake of making my resolutions too extreme, such as “Lose 50 lbs by March 1st” or “No sugar” etc. Needless to say, that has not worked out for me. So, this year, I am giving myself a little more breathing room. After all, this journey that I’m setting out to do is not just a diet or something I’m going to do until I lose the weight I want, it is a lifestyle choice that I intend to maintain forever. 

So, the resolutions:

  1. To get at least 30 minutes of exercise 4 days a week.
  2. To eat as clean and healthy as possible.
  3. To make healthier substitutions (eg 0% Greek yogurt for sour cream) whenever possible.
  4. To drink less pop and more water and tea.
  5. To do yoga or stretch at least 5 times a week. 
  6. To turn off my computer and spend time outside every day. 
  7. To try new things and to not let my weight hold me back from trying said things. 
  8. To take each day as it comes. That means that I will not beat myself up if I indulge a little too much, or I don’t get all my fruits and veggies in, or I miss a workout. There is always tomorrow. 

I think those are some pretty solid resolutions that I can certainly live with. I want to be able to enjoy life and to feel like I can have a piece of cake or some wine without feeling guilty. Moderation, moderation, moderation. 

What are your resolutions for this year?