Progress Update – as of September 13, 2014

Height: 5’7″
Weight: 290.4 lbs
Loss: 3.9 lbs
Current BMI: 45.5
Loss: 0.6

This week’s loss, I think, was brought to you by influenza and the fact that I really couldn’t keep much down for a couple of days. So, oh well.

What I Did Well This Week:
1) One thing I have been doing well is drinking a lot of water. It’s kind of astonishing how little I had been drinking, I didn’t even realize. Now that I am drinking a lot, I notice that when I don’t, I really feel thirsty. Hopefully I can keep this up!

What I Need to Improve On:
1) Although I have been drinking more water, I haven’t been eating less sugar, which has been one of my goals for a couple of weeks, so I can most definitely improve on that.
2) I also really, really need to start getting into an exercise routine. I have really gotten off track and I haven’t been able to find my way back, so hopefully I can do that this week.

How I Feel:
Pretty good, pretty optimistic and hey, this week is a new week, hallelujah!

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Progress Update – as of August 16, 2014 and August 23, 2014

Height: 5’7″

August 16:
Current Weight: 297.2 lbs
Gain: 5.3 lbs
Current BMI: 46.5
Gain: 0.8

August 23:
Current Weight: 294.2 lbs
Loss: 3.0 lbs
Current BMI: 46.1
Loss: 0.4

So, an interesting couple of weeks. A big gain and a big (but smaller) loss. I should say that I don’t know why this happening, but I am sure I do. When I look back on my week, I remember making healthy choices and trying to exercise. However, I have not been tracking my food or exercise religiously like I used to and I think, like most people, when I’m not keeping track I vastly underestimate the amount of food that I’m eating and overestimate the amount of exercise, as well as my exertion level. Hence, the pounds sneak back on. 

What I Did Well This Week:
1) I thought I was making healthy choices. Maybe I wasn’t, but I’m trying, that’s the key. 

What I Can Improve On:
1) Same old, same old. Better eating, more sleep, more exercise. My main thing is sugar. I love sugar. (Who doesn’t?) I love to bake, it’s my Achilles’ heel. So, for the next week, I am trying to do NO sugar. It’s going to be hard. I don’t want to never have sugar ever again, but I really need to reduce my intake. So, let’s see, let’s see if I can do no sugar for awhile and then gradually put it back into my life. 

How I Feel:
More mad at myself than discouraged. I know what I need to do to lose weight, but I am finding it increasingly difficult to do so. I think the reason that I did so well when I was travelling was because a) I didn’t have a car, so I had to either walk or bus (which required planning) everywhere I went and b) I wasn’t working, I spent my days walking around tourist sites. I am finding it difficult to balance my work with my life responsibilities and trying to squeeze in exercise on top of that is proving to be even harder. Truthfully, I could make time for exercise, but I’m so exhausted when I get home from work that it’s extremely difficult to motivate myself to do anything besides just relaxing on the couch. The silver lining in this is that, even though I bus to work, I walk to and from the bus station almost every day, so I usually get at least a 20 minute walk in every day. Not much, but it’s something. 

Cheers, happy losing! 

Progress Update – as of August 2, 2014

Height: 5’7″
Current Weight: 292.2
Gain: 1.9 lbs
Current BMI: 45.8
Gain: 0.3

I almost put “current height”. As if my height fluctuates these days. Haha.

I have also switched my weigh-in day to Saturday, as that is now the day that I attend my Weight Watchers meetings. (Didn’t I say it would change?) It might change again, but for now Saturday is easier for me with my work schedule.

I gained again this week. BUT I think it’s possible that it’s water retention. I have significantly increased my exercise in the past couple of weeks and this past week I was noticing that I felt really dizzy a lot of the time, even when I was sitting down. It seems to have gone away (but of course I’ll watch it to ensure it isn’t a symptom of something more sinister) but I think that I probably wasn’t increasing my water intake to match my exercise. And, as you probably all know, not drinking water can actually cause you to “gain” weight – or at least the number on the scale increases – because your body holds onto the water you do have to try and retain it.

I am hoping that’s what it is. However, I need to get better control of my eating. Exercise has never been a problem for me. I mean, I definitely haven’t done it regularly since I was a kid (excepting the last few months, of course) but I’ve never been someone who hates sports and exercise. I love to dance, swim, bike, rollerblade, horseback ride, run, ski, skate, and play soccer, basketball, volleyball, teenis etc. However, because I have lost flexibility and am carrying more weight, I have found that doing some of these activities (particularly those involving jumping) put a lot more pressure on my joints than they used to and, as a result, I am very prone to injury. (For example, in the past 10 years I have  sprained both ankles several times each, sprained my wrist, crushed my meniscus [a little disk in your knee], sprained toes and broken off a piece of my ankle bone (twice!). Gross.)

So, long story short, I love exercise. But my main problem is, and always has been, eating. I find that when I exercise I sometimes give myself too much of a free pass with my eating. For example, I’ll think “Oh, I can have this donut because I went for a bike ride today”. And while I strongly believe that it’s important to indulge once in awhile, I give myself too much freedom to indulge and thus, fall into a “one step forward, two steps back” kind of pattern. So, I’ve got the exercise thing down (and I’m really enjoying myself!) but it’s time to really focus on the eating.

What I Did Well This Week:
1) Well, I have been exercising almost every day. I used to go about exercise quite the wrong way. I would do the same routine every single day and I think half the reason that I would often fall off that wagon is because I got bored. This time around, I am trying new things. I have been swimming a lot lately, something I love, and I have been riding my bike, something I haven’t done in ages. (Although, to be honest, it is getting a little uncomfortable. I tend to carry the majority of my weight in my mid-section and I actually have a really bony butt for being a big gal, so riding for too long gets a bit uncomfortable!) I dusted off my old rollerblades (although I haven’t used them yet, oops) and I got myself a pair of walking poles so that I can do Nordic walking (similar to cross-country skiing, but walking, but you use the poles to push yourself along and walk your arms). In short, I am enjoying the summer weather immensely (it’s going by far too quickly!!!) and exercising as much as possible outside, enjoying the fresh air.

What I Can Improve On:
1) Eating better, as I said previously, is my main priority. I just need to make smarter choices and to allow myself to indulge less than I’m doing now. I’m trying to cut back on sugar in general, since I eat way too much of it, but I’m finding it very, very difficult. That stuff is addictive. However, one little bit at a time and I will get there.
2) I also need to get more sleep. I average about 6 hours a night. For some people that is probably plenty, but for me it’s just not. I feel really tired a lot of time and the fact that my job is basically completely sedentary doesn’t help my fatigue. The big thing for me is to turn off the screens. I don’t really watch TV (uh, well, except Netflix) but I am a sucker for the internet (Buzzfeed articles, anyone? Addictive.) and so I spend far too much time on here, often at the expense of my sleep. So I’m trying to cut down on my screen time, especially before bed, and do something else like read a book.

How I Feel:
Positive, in general. I am discouraged about the numbers on the scale, but at least I know where it’s coming from, it’s not as though I’ve been perfect and am not seeing any progress. I know that I am making really good steps with my exercise and I know where I have to go from here.

Cheers, happy losing!

(Also, I have just finished Breaking Bad [oh man, so good] and now I’ve moved onto Orange is the New Black and I’m obsessed. Anyone else?)

Progress Update – as of July 17, 2014 and July 24, 2014

Height: 5’7″

July 17:
Current Weight: 287.8 lbs
Loss: 1.4 lbs
Current BMI: 45.1
Loss: 0.2

July 24:
Current Weight: 290.3 lbs
Gain: 2.5 lbs
Current BMI: 45.5
Gain: 0.4

Ugh. So. Another gain. Not going to lie, I am feeling frustrated. I’m not really that surprised though, I have been having a really difficult time juggling work and exercise, as I’m always exhausted when I get home from work and I haven’t yet been able to get up early enough in the morning to fit in a workout before I have to leave. When my exercise routine goes kaput, I sometimes find that my eating follows suit. I am trying very hard to keep going and not just throw in the towel like I have done in the past, but it’s hard. Anyway…

What I Did Well This Week:
1) Uh, not a lot. Everything kind of went cuckoo – not enough sleep, eating less fruits and veggies, not exercising. Just an all around bad week.

What I Can Improve On:
1) Everything. Getting more sleep, eating better, exercising more. All of it. That’s the plan this week.

How I Feel:
Discouraged, but not ready to quit. I know that I just need to keep putting one foot forward. I think that I need to just start thinking of things in shorter terms, just taking it for one day at a time. The idea of exercising everyday and eating really well forever can be really daunting, but I am going to try to think of it in shorter terms. Just for today, I can.

Also, I have started swimming with one of my best friends, Moog (check out her blog mamamoogie.wordpress.com) and I sincerely hope that this can be a weekly occurence. We have done it 3 times now and we’re really hoping to make it a weekly habit. I usually workout by myself, but I am finding that I really enjoy having company, it’s been really nice.

Cheers and happy losing!

Progress Update – as of July 10, 2014

Height: 5’7″
Current Weight: 288.6 lbs
Loss: 0.6 lbs
Current BMI: 45.2
Loss: 0.1

So this week I lost a little bit, but not nearly as much as I’d hoped. Oh well…

What I Did Well This Week:
1) I exercised every day for at least 30 minutes. The difference in how I feel when I exercise is astronomical: I sleep better, I feel happier, my skin looks better etc. etc. I’m not at the point where it’s an automatic habit yet, but I am working on it!
2) I ate really well and tracked my choices as much as I could, I think I did a pretty good job. 

What I Can Improve On:
1) Eating less sugar. Even though I am eating healthier, I still eat too much sugar, definitely. 
2) Getting more sleep. I usually only get 5 hours a night, which is not enough. I am really going to try hard to get at least 7.5 hours every night this week and to get as much as possible before midnight. 
3) I also need to cut down on my screentime. I find it so easy to sit down after work and get sucked into the internet or television or whatever, I am going to try to limit my time watching television or surfing the internet and increase the time I spend outside, enjoying the summer. 

How I Feel:
A little discouraged, I can’t lie. I had really thought I would have a bigger loss this week. But I am not discouraged enough to stop or quit, no worries, I am going to keep plugging away at this and keep going! 

Happy losing! 

Progress Update – as of June 26, 2014 and July 3, 2014

Height: 5’7″

June 26:
Current Weight: 289.2 lbs
Gain: 2.2 lbs
Current BMI: 45.3
Gain: 0.4

July 3:
Current Weight: 289.2 lbs
Loss: 0 lbs
Current BMI: 45.3
Loss: 0

Uh, so I’m a ding dong. I definitely thought that I posted this, but I only saved it in drafts. Oops! Anyway…

So over the last couple of weeks I have gained a couple of pounds. The first weight gain was honestly kind of a shocker, I thought I had done really well that week and so when I got on the scale and had gained 2 lbs I was really quite thrown. But oh well, what are you going to do? All I could do was keep going.

When I weighed myself today, I was honestly surprised that I didn’t gain any weight. I was away at a family reunion for the weekend. Naturally, reunions mean food and, given how big my family is, LOTS of it. I did as well as could in terms of choosing healthy foods over the weekend (I was also at a rodeo) but it was rather difficult, so I was really surprised that I didn’t see a gain. I also didn’t really exercise at all, I came down with a terrible head cold and was just feeling pretty horrific.

What I Did Well This Week:

1) I worked really hard at making good choices, food wise. I am honest to goodness addicted to sugar. I really am. So this week, I tried very, very hard to limit my sugar intake and to focus instead of eating more fruits and vegetables.

What I Can Improve On:

1) Exercise, mainly. There is definitely room for improvement in my diet, but at this point in time I think that I really need to focus on fitting exercise in. Some people can lose weight just by changing their diet, but I personally find that exercise is vital for me to lose. Plus it means that I can get away with eating more food 😉

How I Feel:

Pretty good, to be honest. I am finding it easier to make good choices with food these days. I still most definitely get cravings and sometimes I find it difficult to not have ALL the ice cream, but the deafening roar that used to demand that I stuff my face is slowly being silenced. And the good angel on my shoulder encouraging me to eat good food is definitely making a great case. I am looking forward to my next weigh-in! (Who even says that? I’m such a weirdo.)

Progress Update – as of June 19, 2014

Height: 5’7″
Current Weight: 287 lbs
Gain: 3 lbs
Current BMI: 44.9
Gain: 0.4

Alright, so I’m up again. BUT I am actually down from earlier in the week when I previously weighed myself, so it’s okay. I’m not sweating it. I am all about the positive attitude these days, about remembering that this is a journey and NOT a race and that I need to look forward and keep pushing and stay positive. I firmly believe that hard work and a good attitude can get you anywhere you want in life and this is no different. 

Also, I am OBSESSED with avocado these days. It’s funny because I used to HATE it when I was a kid, the sight of it practically made me vomit. Now? I can’t get enough of that delicious creaminess?! Funny how things can change like that. 

What I Did Well This Week:

1) I did very well with tracking. As I mentioned previously, I am now on Weight Watchers and I am positively in love with their new app, it makes keeping track of what I’m eating SO easy. 
2) I ate a lot of fruits and veggies, way more than I normally do. I had a fruit smoothie very morning (made with frozen berries, frozen banana and milk – YUM) and had a salad with lunch every day and I loaded my plate with vegetables every night. I really want to keep it up because honestly, it makes me feel awesome, I have so much energy. 

What I Can Improve On:

1) While I did eat lots of fruits and veggies, I also went a little overboard on the ice cream this week. (Ice cream is the one vice that I will never, ever be able to give up.) The grocery store had a sale on ice cream this week (so bad!) so I bought a couple of tubs and promptly dug in to maple walnut (my favourite, along with strawberry). Oops.
2) I didn’t do so well with the exercise this week, or with my Little Black Dress challenge. Most days, I found that suddenly it was 10 pm and I had run out of time to work out and then other days, I was so exhausted by 9 pm that I just called it a night and didn’t exercise. I only did the challenge one day this week, so I am resolved to start it again (and stick with it!) this week, as well as get my walking in. 

How I Feel:

I’m feeling awesome, to be honest. And maybe it’s because I have more energy or maybe it’s because I’ve been eating better, but I feel so HAPPY. I am just feeling confident and happy and pretty much like I can kick any challenge’s butt right about now. I think it’s more about just being healthier, I think it’s also just a mental change from the self-reflection that I did on my time away. Regardless, no matter how it came about, I’m thrilled. 

Cheers friends, happy losing!