End of a Long Hiatus

Hello dear readers,

I have to apologize for my long absence from this blog. It was unintentional at first; life has been so busy that the weeks seemed to come and go in a flash. But eventually, after life calmed down a bit, it became intentional. Why? Because I was ashamed and embarrassed. I threw healthy eating and exercise pretty much out the window when I was so busy and I was embarrassed because I gained the weight back. I am exactly where I started almost a year ago, all of the little progress that I made is gone.

I thought that perhaps I could postpone in so that I could lose weight and then come back and pretend like I had just been busy and that I wasn’t frantically trying to get to the weight that I was at last time I posted. Didn’t work.

I am on the road to trying again. Really, really trying to shed this weight and keep it off, but it’s hard. You all know this. Life, as it tends to do, gets in the way. There are checkbooks to balance, houses to clean, appointments to schedule, errands to run, pets to care for and jobs to go to. Not to mention that I am very involved in extracurricular activities, plus I’m often out and about on the weekends with friends or family.

I like being busy, I find that I get restless very easily when I am not busy, but I often bite off more than I can chew in an attempt to fill up my life with things to do. This is what I did just recently, meaning that the “optional” things like exercise, sleep and making my own lunch get thrown away.

And that’s not good. That’s not good at all. I need to rid myself of the attitude that any of those things are optional or are not as important to my health and wellbeing. I need to make time during my day to ensure that I get enough water, enough sleep, that I prepare healthy meals and I exercise. I feel so much better when I do these things and yet, I’m just not consistent. Why is that? Because there’s not enough time.

Except, actually, there is enough time. I just need to find it.


Progress Update – as of July 10, 2014

Height: 5’7″
Current Weight: 288.6 lbs
Loss: 0.6 lbs
Current BMI: 45.2
Loss: 0.1

So this week I lost a little bit, but not nearly as much as I’d hoped. Oh well…

What I Did Well This Week:
1) I exercised every day for at least 30 minutes. The difference in how I feel when I exercise is astronomical: I sleep better, I feel happier, my skin looks better etc. etc. I’m not at the point where it’s an automatic habit yet, but I am working on it!
2) I ate really well and tracked my choices as much as I could, I think I did a pretty good job. 

What I Can Improve On:
1) Eating less sugar. Even though I am eating healthier, I still eat too much sugar, definitely. 
2) Getting more sleep. I usually only get 5 hours a night, which is not enough. I am really going to try hard to get at least 7.5 hours every night this week and to get as much as possible before midnight. 
3) I also need to cut down on my screentime. I find it so easy to sit down after work and get sucked into the internet or television or whatever, I am going to try to limit my time watching television or surfing the internet and increase the time I spend outside, enjoying the summer. 

How I Feel:
A little discouraged, I can’t lie. I had really thought I would have a bigger loss this week. But I am not discouraged enough to stop or quit, no worries, I am going to keep plugging away at this and keep going! 

Happy losing! 

Progress Update – as of January 15, 2014

My pants are falling down. I mean it. Doesn’t matter if I wear a belt, they are so loose in the waist now. I am thinking that this means I need to go down a size.

This week, I went from 295.5 to 295.4 lbs, so only a 0.1 lb loss. Disappointing BUT my pants are falling down. So I take that to mean that I am losing inches, but that the scale isn’t reflecting that, hopefully because that means that I’m gaining muscle.

Who knows?

What I Did Really Well This Week:

1) Exercise! I have exercised for at least 30 minutes a day, every single day, since January 1st. I have never, ever done that before. I am so unbelievably proud of myself for sticking with it and I am amazed at how great I feel.

2) On Wednesday night (January 8th), I tripped and rolled my foot quite badly. Because I was unable to do my traditional cardio workout, I had to improvise and I am really proud of myself. I did not let an injury be an excuse to go back to old habits, I just changed up my routine to stay off my foot and I was able to continue, without missing a day!

3) I have been extremely good lately at drinking lots of water. I have only had ONE single sugary beverage since December 31st and that beverage was a pina colada on my birthday (which was this past week, yay for being 25!). And honestly, I enjoyed that pina colada so much more because it was truly a treat.

What I Can Improve On:

1) I need to keep adding more fruits and veggies to my diet until I am getting the recommended 5-10 a day.

2) I hardly ever eat breakfast. I am really awful about it. I often just don’t feel like eating in the morning, so I’m going to try to have smoothies this week. That way I can start my day off with some fruits and veggies (I always sneak spinach or kale into my smoothies) and hopefully it won’t feel as heavy on my stomach as something like oatmeal or eggs.

3) I am usually really good about tracking absolutely every single thing I eat, but this week I had a couple of birthday dinners and so I think that I wasn’t 100% accurate with my tracking. I will improve on that next week.

4) I should get more sleep. I have been going to bed too late for the last few days and I wake up feeling tired, so I’m hoping to go to bed earlier this week.

How I Feel:

Even though I wasn’t perfect in my efforts this week (although really, will I ever be 100% perfect? doubtful) I am still really proud of how I have been doing over the past couple of weeks and it makes me happy and excited to move forward.

Happy exercising, folks!