End of a Long Hiatus

Hello dear readers,

I have to apologize for my long absence from this blog. It was unintentional at first; life has been so busy that the weeks seemed to come and go in a flash. But eventually, after life calmed down a bit, it became intentional. Why? Because I was ashamed and embarrassed. I threw healthy eating and exercise pretty much out the window when I was so busy and I was embarrassed because I gained the weight back. I am exactly where I started almost a year ago, all of the little progress that I made is gone.

I thought that perhaps I could postpone in so that I could lose weight and then come back and pretend like I had just been busy and that I wasn’t frantically trying to get to the weight that I was at last time I posted. Didn’t work.

I am on the road to trying again. Really, really trying to shed this weight and keep it off, but it’s hard. You all know this. Life, as it tends to do, gets in the way. There are checkbooks to balance, houses to clean, appointments to schedule, errands to run, pets to care for and jobs to go to. Not to mention that I am very involved in extracurricular activities, plus I’m often out and about on the weekends with friends or family.

I like being busy, I find that I get restless very easily when I am not busy, but I often bite off more than I can chew in an attempt to fill up my life with things to do. This is what I did just recently, meaning that the “optional” things like exercise, sleep and making my own lunch get thrown away.

And that’s not good. That’s not good at all. I need to rid myself of the attitude that any of those things are optional or are not as important to my health and wellbeing. I need to make time during my day to ensure that I get enough water, enough sleep, that I prepare healthy meals and I exercise. I feel so much better when I do these things and yet, I’m just not consistent. Why is that? Because there’s not enough time.

Except, actually, there is enough time. I just need to find it.


Progress Update – as of February 5, 2014

Height: 5’7″
Current Weight: 294.0 lbs
Gain: 3.9 lbs
Current BMI: 46.0
Gain: 0.6
Bust: 50 in.
Waist: 56 in.
Hips: 51.5 in.
Pants/Dress Size: 18

Hello readers,

My apologies for my tardiness in this post. As I have mentioned previously, in passing, (or at least I think I did!) I am moving to New Zealand in approximately 3 1/2 weeks and it is seriously stressing me out. I have so much to do before I go and life is kicking my butt right now. If I didn’t need sleep I would be in great shape, but unfortunately…

Also unfortunate is that I gained weight. Annoying, yes, but it wasn’t entirely unexpected. I was ill from the 25th to the 30th, then I was away from the 31st to the 7th, so my exercise routine was non-existent in that time period. I could have worked out when I was away, but at that point I had kind of fallen out of the habit, so I honestly wasn’t all that motivated to work out. My bad, I know.

I did eat fairly well in the week that I was away, but given that I had been existing on chicken soup and juice the week before when I was ill, I assumed that most of the weight I lost was water weight and that it would come back as soon as I started eating real food again. I was right. And I was with my aunt and grandmother, who are both excellent bakers, so I may have overindulged in some goodies like cake and cookies and fudge while I was away. However, it’s a new week and I am determined to see a loss next week!

As of the start of this blog, my net loss is 7.8 lbs. Not as high as I wanted, but it’s still a loss, so yay me. January was pretty good to me and I’m hoping that February will be the same.

My measurements have not changed, but it’s okay, we’re getting there!

What I Did Really Well This Week:

1) I ate more fruit, especially in the mornings, and I ate breakfast every morning. My grandmother is an early riser, as is my aunt, so I was up early every morning while I was gone and I had a healthy breakfast every day, usually consisting of fruit, oatmeal or toast, and a glass of milk.

2) I drank a lot of liquids (my grandma is really into tea, so she drinks several cups a day and we always joined her) which is good, because when I am not exercising I usually do not drink as much liquid as I should.

3) I got a lot of sleep. Back at my place, I usually stay up as long as I want to. My grandmother’s apartment is small and she and my aunt go to bed early, so I went to bed when they did because watching TV or something like that would keep them awake. It was good though, I never get enough sleep.

What I Can Improve On:

1) I haven’t exercised for about 2 weeks, so I really need to get back on that wagon. When you’re really busy, it’s so easy to push exercise to the side, but I love how it makes me feel so I really want to make time for myself during the day to exercise and stay on track.

2) I also didn’t really track my food intake while I was sick or while I was away, so I need to get back into the habit of doing that. I did eat pretty well while I was away, but I still think that it’s a good idea for me to write down what I eat so that I can make sure that I’m not overdoing a certain food group and to make sure that I’m getting enough fruits and vegetables.

How I Feel:

Right now, I honestly just feel really, really stressed. I have so much organizing and sorting and packing to do and it is really making me feel a bit overwhelmed at this point. I do feel like I am still on the right path towards weight loss, but when I get stressed out I tend to not exercise (which, ironically, helps with stress) and I tend to eat emotionally, so I really need to keep that in check.

Anyway, happy weight loss to all and let’s hope that next week is better!